The routine of life is sickening me. Its been the same thing everyday and I’m sure I’ll have the ‘oh not again!’ feeling again when i wake up tomorrow! Everything I did on a daily basis, like brushing teeth and eating, for instance, is appearing just bio-mechanical. As if a PC is executing what it has been programmed to do. These things are bound to be done that way, or else people would think I’d stuffed my mouth with a sock all night. But the worst feeling hanging around is like life is closing around me, and I’m simply searching for a hole to tear myself out, lest I should be trapped with claustrophobia!
What I meant by ranting about things going the way they are is, its been monotonous for quite sometime now. Many people may give me examples of themselves or others and say that life as a student can be as interesting as u can make it, and that there is not much freedom once you’re out into the corporate race. I don’t know how true it is, but it sure does sound sickening. Coming back to my search for holes, every hole out of the closure, opens up an arena which appears vast, serene and tranquilising. But soon starts to fall back and I’m left with my claustrophobia again! Damn it!
I am referring here, to all the things that i did/wanted to do/stopped halfway/just drafted the plans. Every plan or idea whose time was ripe, appears as sole star in the blacked out mind. But soon dims and fades out into the mist of given up ideas in the background. The relative enthusiasm is always the phenomenon to blame. The innocent mind is polluted with all these ideas and refuses to fall back upon failed plans, while the new ones are tempting.
Okay! Ideas – old, new, working, drafts, dead etc. What do we do about it? Just let it be a loosely let out fog in the mind and ignore them as if they weren’t your brain-child? Hide your face from your inner self and be haunted by the unknown feeling of betraying someone you don’t know? Naa… List it. Its better to have it in your hand than in your mind. List them one by one and see for yourself, the fog in the mind clearing out. Do what is there in the list and see one new star in the cleared mind promising light for eternity! Each job done or each idea realised means one new star and lot more life and energy for the tired brain.
So, the list of things/jobs/ideas is ready and it is NOT a To-Do list, because to-do lists are always boring and imposing in nature. This list is “Do it before you die” List, ie., before you kick the bucket and call it a wonderful life, well led. The Bucket List. Keep this one closest to your heart and use it without inhibitions. Completing the tasks depends upon the necessity, sanity, and the possibility of it to happen. And at last, I’m sure that, as said in the movie “The Bucket List”, your eyes would be closed when you die, but your heart will be open.
Now, enough of talking and getting to work, I’d like to present you with my small Bucket list.
Singing heartily and loudly with a close pal, sitting with popcorn, and entertaining grandkids.
Drive a Harley Davidson, Mustang and a Rolls Royce.
Spend one evening with Priyanka Chopra in Hawaii.
Bungee jumping, canoeing and a few nature-sports.
Flying high in the sky and feeling the wind kiss my skin.
Perform as a villain opposite Himesh Reshammiya and kill him in that movie.
Lose weight and achieve a BMI of 22 at least once before I am 40 30 25.
Pose for a photograph sitting on a Lion, with a Sniper Rifle.
Learning to write with my left hand and out-doing the right hand’s proficiency.
Shop till the shop-owner drops.
Look into the eyes of ‘My Perfect’ and losing myself.
Perform in a concert as a lead vocal, singing my compositions.
O-oh…! I almost forgot the most important thing. I should have a fortune to make at least few of these stars shine. I have worked out two choices : Work hard and earn like a ‘fit for nothing else’ money-holic, OR, work-out hard to impress a good-looking daughter of a m(b)illionaire. 😛 . The latter sounds interesting though! 😀
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